Waiting...

TUKS deserve a royal "up yours" I think.

No, I didn't get in, not for any of the 3 courses I applied for. Bloody Buggers...

Still waiting for Medunsa, I really really hope...

...

Strike 1

BSc: Medical Sciences (APS-GR12=37.00) APPLICATION WAS UNSUCCESSFUL

Waiting patiently to hear about the MBChB...

Asswipes!

I am hoping to increase my chances this way...

So, any change in enrolled subjects opened this week for the coming semester and end of year exams. You can change, add or drop modules for the last chance this year.

So now, instead of the original 8 registered subjects I had for the coming end of year exams, I have cancelled a total of 3, I now only have 5 left. (3 carried over from last year and 2 new ones) It's a 50/50 chance I am possibly taking here, but I have to do what I need to give myself the best possible chance.

Either I now increase my chances of passing all 5, instead of maybe passing 5 and failing the rest (as the agreement is that I need to pass ALL of them) OR I just cancelled subjects I will need to REDO next year (do I not get into Med-School and have to carry on with the QS degree) because either way, I won't stop studying. And I won't stop trying either...

5, only 5, I can do this!!!

Spanner in the wheel...

So, turns out I do not have to write the placement tests, seeing that I already wrote them in my matric year, I never knew what the results were, but I didn't get selected then. Once written, it's over, you don't get seconds.

For me, selection will take place the following way:
Matriculants before 2008 have to have at least a D symbol in both Maths and Physical Science on Higer Grade - DONE
I have to have passed atleast 8 x semester subjects OR 4 x year subjects in the first year of study at any tertiary institution, in any degree. - DONE

THEN the spanner - I have to submit a proof of my full academic record in January 2011, stating that I passed ALL the registered subjects in the year of application - FARK!!!

Provisional selection - September 2010 (based on application and academic records submitted)
Final selection - January 2011 - based on exam results of OCT/NOV 2010...

I knew writing these tests would have been tough, but I was kind of prepared for it. Now EVERYTHING is based on the coming exams and I am already stressing, there are some tough subjects and phew, this means (not as if it wasn't before) but, now really, THE BALL IS ALL IN MY COURT. It's make or break, I have to study my a$$ off for something I am not going to even do for the rest of my life, to be able to do something I always wanted. WEIRD twist on life...

Let the studying begin, seeing as I kind of mentally started shutting down towards the Quantity Surveying, now I have to FOCUS!!!

Here's to straight A's or atleast straight passes!

Application status...

Application received, got my student number (old student number just re-activated) and waiting for the info regarding the placement tests... Have just under 2 weeks to get myself prepared, bought Gr.10 - 12 maths books to get myself fimiliarised with it all again... YUCK! But I HAVE to do this!

Online application status reads:

1. MBChB (APS-GR12=37.00) CONSIDERED FOR A NUMBERS LIMITED COURSE
2. BSc: Medical Sciences (APS-GR12=37.00) SUBMITTED TO DEPARTMENTAL ADMISSION COMMITTEE

Oh the nerves!

So what will happen to Baby #2?

Well, we are not planning to put family life on hold (that is if I get selected for Med school, starting 2011) for the next 100 years. So that will have to happen inbetween all the full time studying, no working and long nights of hitting the books...

If I get in (please God), we are to start working on baby #2 round about Feb 2011 or so, hoping it works withing the first month (please God), so that baby will make his (hoping for her) appearance round about November (hoping for end of exams and the start of the holiday) so I atleast have some time (this time it will unfortunately not be a full 6 months) with her before it's back to the books and off to school for her. I already feel bad about the fact that it won't be the same as with Joshua, that I won't have THAT much time (maybe I will) but it's now or never.

All these little things to consider, makes this seem so unbelievably incredibly insane, but I will regret not taking my chance one day, I know I will. I already do...

So, still on Yas, stopping end October, will use other means of preventative method's till January or so and then start humping like clockwise... Oi, gonna be the talk of the class...

Confirmation?

1.) Be flexible, for I have places to take you and things to show you that you will miss if you are rigid and unyielding. Keep an open mind and an open heart, and I will give you nuggets of wisdom and spiritual truth in the most unexpected ways in unforeseen places. I want to extricate you from the grip of religious spirits that require you to be stern, precise, and in control. Spontaneity will give you the freedom to move with the wind of My Spirit, says the Lord.


John 3:8 "The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit."
 
2.) The unknown factor in your life is your potential. Your existing possibilities can become actualities if you will allow Me to lead you and to develop the gifting and calling on your life. I have a plan and a purpose for you to be established in My kingdom both now and forever, but you will never reach your potential unless you yield completely to being transformed by My Spirit, says the Lord. You must become one with Me in all ways, and then you will access all that I have promised.


Romans 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
 
3.) I am calling you to come into My peace and rest. I am for you and with you, says the Lord. No matter the circumstances or difficulties that are designed to overwhelm you, I will bring you through in renewed courage and strength. Lean on Me and trust Me to bring you through to higher spiritual ground. I speak into your storm and command peace.


Mark 4:39 Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, "Peace, be still!" And the wind ceased and there was a great calm.

Motivation letter

To those reading my blog, now you know... Provisional selection takes place in September. Please please please think of me!


The Selection Officer

Faculty of Health Sciences
P O Box 667
Pretoria
0001



I am a 26 year old married female and mother to a toddler boy. I have been dreaming of becoming a Medical Doctor all my life, unfortunately my path has led me to other ventures along the way, none of which I regret. I have tried my hand at numerous endeavours, from Architecture and Graphic Design to currently studying BSc.QS, as that is the work environment I am currently in and I want to keep myself busy with constant knowledge gain and to promote myself wherever I can. All of these gave me great exposure to life and different experiences that I will always carry with me, as that made me a better person. Although, sadly, none of these gave me the fulfilment I have always longed for. 9 years and a lot of life experience later, the desire to become a Medical Doctor has never died. The desire is still strong in my heart and constantly fuelling my aspirations to ultimately achieve my goal in making this dream a reality.

When growing up as a child, I was surrounded by Medical Doctors in my family and I know what the time and dedication entails to grow in this profession. I have seen the hard work, the long hours, the dedication and the passion one should have, but I have seen the rewards and that outweighs the sacrifices.

I am a well rounded person with many hobbies and interests (ranging from photography to graphic and digital design, a passion for people, listening and assisting with advice, music and reading to just name a few) I feel balanced and mentally and emotionally fit to embark on this journey at this specific time in my life.

I have had successes in my life, I have completed studies, I have excelled in the work place and I have tried to familiarise myself with as much knowledge as possible in my situation to ensure my best output. I have become a wife and a mother, two of the greatest achievements any woman can be proud of.

I have also had failures, I am human and we all fall at some point, but from that I learnt to pick myself up and rise again. I have risen above that which made me fall and I am rising again. I am planning to add this opportunity to my list of successes, not failures. I have let myself down in the past, but letting my family and especially my son down, is not an option. I want to be an example for him to look up to one day. To be able to say that his mother dreamt big and that I did everything I could to achieve that dream.

Since becoming a mother I have realised that not only do I want to be a Medical Doctor, I also want to specialise in Obstetrics and Gynaecology, as that is where my heart and passion lies. From personal experience, having been pregnant myself and going through the labour process, I know that I will have the compassion and understanding towards other woman in the same situation.

I will strive to make the experience as memorable for each patient, but always and foremost, respecting their wishes. Starting as a Family Doctor and working my way towards my ultimate goal of an Obstetrician and Gynaecologist.

To me, medicine entails more than just healing, but an understanding towards humanity and compassion towards fellow mankind, to be kind, to listen and to apply my knowledge to the best of my ability in helping others. As quoted from the oath of Hippocrates: "I will remember that there is art to medicine as well as science, and that warmth, sympathy, and understanding may outweigh the surgeon's knife or the chemist's drug."

I know being a wife and mother will make this a very hard road to embark on, but I have the desire and dedication to make this a success, my dream may be far, but it will never be out of reach. I also have a very good personal support system in my husband and family to make the road ahead as successful as possible. We realise the road will be long and hard, but we are prepared for the ride!

I always strive to excel at what I do and gain as much knowledge as possible, I have learnt the ability to create a balance between family life and studies and I see both as equal responsibilities. I do think that makes me an excellent candidate to consider for selection towards the MBChB degree, starting January 2011. I have experience, I have zest for life and I am dedicated towards my goals. I am mature and I know the time for me to start this journey has come. I know with great passion in my heart that I have it in me to make this a success.

If I am selected for placement in 2011, I promise to give 100% of myself towards becoming a great doctor that can serve this country, as I am and will always be a South African.



Yours Truly

Monzelle de Villiers

Update on my life...

Ok, this thing I want to do...

Step 2 is done. DH is supporting me 100%, I was a bit petrified about that one, don't know why, but seeing as I will throw the entire apple cart of the de Villiers household on it's head, it was probably normal to feel that way. BUT he is fine with it. Have already started making plans as to how we will manage it. SO YEAH! There is already favour on the situation, now just to get the definite answer and to get through the selection process (ugh, really hope I make it) - application handed in, waiting for a reference, then I need to send supporting documents. And there will probably be an admissions test, so have to figure out HOW I am going to get through that one...

Other than that, we are (finally) doing very well. We were all sick in a row, first J, then me, then DH, then I had to have my tonsils taken out and have a septoplasty. FARKING HELL is all I can say, seriously, I will go through all my preggy friends' labours for them FOR FREE rather than to ever have to go through that again, it was pure agony, I am NOT a pissy, but that, that was torture. Lucky you can only do it ONCE.

J is busy cutting his first eye-tooth (bottom left), toothie no.13 in total. He also started sleeping with his cot sides down as of Monday. Night 1, no thuds, night 2 we had 2 and this morning he was sleeping on the floor on the matress... Shame...

DH and I have initially thought of starting TTC with #2 in July of this year, and if (hoping) little bean sticks in the first few months we were hoping to have this bundle of joy in our arms by the time J-man is around 2. BUT things again have changed, we were initially looking at a bigger house first (which have now taken a backslide to my prospective future plans, so we are considering renovating and adding an additional room to our existing house - now, just to get past body corporate - assholes) So we have decided to start trying, without trying around November/December, seeing that I am still on the pill till end October. Also after 9 months of pregnancy, 1 year of breastfeeding (expressing) I wanted to give my body a WELL DESERVED break, selfish? I don't know, I just need some "me" time first. AND with J walking since April and just getting CUTER by the day, we are really enjoying him SO much at the moment, that we honestly don't want to share him with a sibling at the moment, even more selfish? Whatever. I LOVE playing with him and being able to pick him up and run after him, they are quite a handful when they are mobile hey, SO different to crawling. There were times I thought, oh oh, I am pregnant, sometimes really wished it was so, but I know the time will come when we are ALL ready to share.

We got J a dog for his birthday (a labrador named Sam) - DON'T DO IT!!! He is lovely, but it just gets confirmed to me daily, that I AM NOT a dog person, NOT at all, I HATE slobber. I LOVE cats, yes, they are aristocratic and keep to themselves, but they are so much less of a pain in the ass.

Well, ya, not much more to report on, so let me get back to my braindead job...

Will keep you posted on the future plans, hoping to have clarity soon.

Mmmmm, what am I thinking?

So this "thing" has been bothering me for close to maybe 2 years now, been NAGGING in the back of my mind and it get's stronger by the day...

Have only shared the info with one person (you know who you are) other than my mom and DH, whom still looks at me funny, I don't think he thinks I am serious. But I hope to get some advice from you (the one person), pretty please??

This is something that I SHOULD have done 9 years ago, right from the start, but it took me this long to realise THIS is where I want to be, THIS is what I want to do, THIS is ME!

So just, without knowing the details (yet), please think of me, this will entail a MAJOR change in my life (no, I am lying, everyone in my life, my entire household) this is HUGE (I think) but I know I want to atleast try...

Yes, I live

Okay, I haven't blogged in a while, but promise to update on EVERYTHING soon...

I just had to laugh my ass off now, and I know it's horrible, but I always knew the "my son is so precious" "he has never been sick" "he is such and angel" "mommy is so happy that nothing ever goes wrong" had to bite you in the ass sometime, I was waiting with bated breath... The time has come! Welcome to REAL mommy-hood!

Preggy digi-scrapping

My first attempt...

My birthday and some crazyness

Well, birthday has come and gone - spent the day at home alone (cleaning) seeing as hubby started work on the 4th and our offices only opened on the 11th, so I had some time to myself. School started on the 5th already for Josh, so I decided to take him eventhough I was still at home, but it gave me some time to sort out a few things that didn't get done over the holidays... Fetched him earlier than normal though to spend some time in the afternoon with him. As hubby was on his way to gym the morning of my birthday he got a nasty surprise as they were closed (a privately owned gym) and would only open again from early in the morning the following week, so he came right back home and took us for a nice wimpy breakfast to start the festivities!

As said, I cleaned a bit, Josh was at school and we spend the rest of the afternoon together once he was home, did some garden work, me and him, he ate some flowers, and some dirt and he was nasty after but he enjoyed it, and so did I. Until a blackwidow spider made her way for my hand when I pulled on some weeds, so I dropped everything and so our garden expedition ended. Got Josh cleaned and re-dressed and off for his nap while I showered and cleaned myself of the grubbyness of the earth... Then hubby took us to dinner at Jimmy's Killer Prawn, it was awesome, I had some king klip, prawns, calamari with rice and salad. It was yummy!
"Spending some time with mommy in the garden"

Josh got his mommy a new vanity case, mine is dead from old age and I am still waiting for hubby's present as he ordered it somewhere and now the order is stuck. (Men)


Other than that, a year flew by too quickly, last year we had our 4D scan on my birthday and I can't believe how far we have come since seeing Josh on that screen! It was totally awesome!

Then some crazy, I am so convinced that our next baba will be a girl that I already bought her 3 outfits, now let's just hope this plan doesn't backfire and I shoot myself in the foot! If all goes like I want it, she should be born next year April... Keep them crossed ladies!

Everything in between

Well, our holiday is over! Boo hoo hoo, I am still on leave till the 11th, so atleast I can still chill a bit, although it feels like maternity leave all over again, as Josh is still home with me and hubby is off to work... Josh will be going back to school from tomorrow when they open, so then I can spend some time doing things in and around the house like I planned, being on leave doesn't mean you always have time to do it, we spent maybe 5 or 6 nights in our own beds this holiday, that's insane. Other than that it was always a quick visit here, a sleep over there, having people over for lunch. Hardly rest, really!

Christmas has come and gone, wow, what happened to the Christmas feeling? Did any of you get it? We didn't,even with it being Joshua's first Christmas, I missed it, it felt more like Christmas to me on New year's, if that even makes sense.

New years arrived with a bang (literally) seeing that we were all by our lonesome, can't really go and party with a baby now can you? And we just wanted some time to ourselves... Honestly, sleeping over again would make me sick!

So here's to:
Baby no 2, which will hopefully by conceived by July/August this year (cross your fingers for a girlie wirlie!)
Loosing 10kg's before I fall pregnant again
Keeping up with my expressing up until Josh is a year old
Being better at admin (home admin)
Studying, taking the plunge and doing 13 subjects this year
Just being the best wife/mother/sister/daughter I can be